In the mornings I always get motivated to run when I see the sun peaking through my blinds. Especially during my long training runs. Saturday, as I stepped out the door into the crisp morning, I inhaled a deep breath of the cool winter’s day. I began jogging up the road, and then began running briskly admiring another beautiful day of life. After a short while, the song My Redeemer Lives by Nicole C. Mullens filled my ears from my iPod. Every time I hear this song while I am running, I get lost in the beautiful chorus and even catch myself closing my eyes. While I know this familiar road, and that there are very few cars traveling this early in the day, for a moment I confidently ran forward with both eyes closed tightly shut.
As I continued running blindly down the road spending time with God in praise, I wondered if this is what God meant by walking by faith and not by sight. My thoughts drifted away from my surroundings and I began to meditate those words. Before I closed my eyes, I knew that there weren’t any obstacles that I would run into along the road. There weren’t any cars on the street, people outside or walking their dogs, and yet I was completely confident running with my eyes closed.
On the contrary, life does not always have bump-free roads for us to run on, instead they are packed full of all types of obstacles. After my brief moment of blindness, I felt God nudging me to reflect on whether or not I would be willing to run with my eyes closed through the bumpy patches of life, and solely rely on Him for my confidence, even when I did not know the road ahead.
I started asking God about what things I needed to do to walk by faith and not by sight and for the next several miles, with each breath I exhaled, God reminded me of some things in which I needed to increase my faith. My husband’s chronic illness. A damaged relationship. Someone whom I needed to forgive. Raising my children. Marriage. Health concerns. The future. It became very clear to me that I rarely walk by faith regarding the big issues in my life. It appears that when the burdens become heavier, I try to carry them on my own. I fret and worry and sometimes, I imagine the worst. I try to determine what I can do to remedy the problem or avoid all together when instead, I should be giving it all to God. Worrying will not change a thing, but faith can change everything.
Walking by faith and not by sight, does not mean we need to walk around with our eyes physically closed, but we need to live with the eyes of our heart open. God wants us to put our faith in Him, believing with full confidence that He will take care of the bumps, guide us around the obstacles, and carry us through to the finish line. The scripture 2 Corinthians 5:7 says, “We live by faith, not by sight.” We are not only commanded to simply walk by faith, but live by faith every day.
I want to not only walk by faith, but run fully by faith. I desire for the type of faith where Christ allows me to close my physical eyes, and instead see through the eyes of my heart while running fearlessly ahead.