Last month marks three years since a dear friend of mine took her life. She was so on fire for God that we all could not imagine why she chose to leave before her time. I knew she was struggling with so much pain, health, her relationships, but that did not stop her from witnessing and lifting up others during her storms.
Looking back, I remember the many conversations we had about our children, the craziness of life and jokingly stating that running away wouldn’t be all that bad. We laughed it off, knowing we we would never dream of such a thing. It was all talk right? A few days after the new year of 2009, she did leave, leaving her three children and her dear husband behind with one question…why? I know that she loved God with all of her heart. I often wish I would have picked up on the signs of her hurt and desire to be free. Now I can peacefully say that I know she is full of joy and with the Creator who knows her better than anyone ever did. Revelation 21:4 says, “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” She has finished the leg of her race and is now in heaven with the cloud of witnesses cheering her family and friends in their race encouraging us to “Run!”
Natalie Grant’s song, “The Real Me,” has been a heart-tugging, emotional hymn in my life since the day she joined our Father. I still fall apart when I hear it and am torn apart now with her memory. I love and miss her so much. This song reminds us that God sees through the masks we wear. He knows us more than anyone else and He loves us even through our brokenness. She says, “he’s turning the fabric of my life into a perfect tapestry.” Isn’t that awesome?
I beg you to run to Jesus (not before your time), but in your prayer and relationship with Him. He has such wonderful plans for you all if you choose to listen and run to Him.
God bless you!